tip 3 and 4

Tip 3: Plan activities throughout the year to be slim for.  Small reasonable goals.

•  The first day of summer : I'd love to be back into my size 12 jeans by then! Everyone wants to be thin for summer but that is unreasonable for me.  So I'll just say "slimmer"
• September 19th:  One of my good friends is getting married and I'd like to not have to hide from cameras like I did at another friends wedding last June.  September is also my birthday month, and I will have a lot going on.  My goal by September 19th is a size 8.

That's all I can think of for now!

Tip 4:  Promise yourself a treat when you reach your goals
   Right now I'm thinking of big "treats" when I reach big goals, like a new Northface, if it's still winter, when I break the 200 lb barrier and smaller ones, like a spray tan or new peice of clothing, when I weigh a number that ends in 5 like 205, 195... and maybe another small treat when it ends in 0, 190, 180... I think small goals like 5 lb increments will help keep me on track.

February 4 and 5

Friday
 My eating overall was wonderful except having a pop tart! I woke up earlier than I have been and had a tough, but amazing, workout.  After that I went and got my hair cut.  For lunch I actually cooked! I made talapia that I found on the eat clean website and had it with green beans! It was my first time cooking talapia and it was super easy!  I wasn't a big fan of I think it was the garlic but it's definitely something I'd try again! Maybe with cajun spice next time! Yummy!   For breakfast I had an egg white omlet with mushrooms, green peppers, and cheese! Again, yummy but I should have left the cheese out to be healthier.  I had an orange too with my breakfast.  Before I went to work is when I ate the poptart.  It didn't really do anything for me.  I think I'm starting to understand the concept of "eating to live" instead of "living to eat."  When I eat something bad it only tastes good for a minute, while it's in my mouth, while healthy food satisfies me for way longer.

Saturday
I had my usual breakfast again.  The eggwhite omlet, then had another kick ass workout!  I really wanna be a runner so I try to ease myself into it and do interval training at  the same time.  Today I walked 2 minutes at 3.5 then jogged at 5.0 for 3 mins (I'm only 5'3 so even though that's walking for some, it's jogging for my short legs!).  I jogged in total 12 mins (which was 20 mins of the "interval training") and my shins were SCREAMING at me so I just walked increasing the incline by 1 every minute.  In total I was on the treadmill for 38 mins then did some arm and ab work.  I was very satisfied with my workout.  I went out to lunch with my mom and didn't do great but I could have done worse.  We went to a wonderful little Italian restaurant and I had a lunch size shrimp scampi with crab meat.  I didn't eat it all for lunch I finished the rest for dinner.  I did eat a few girl scout cookies as well! I wouldn't say today was an exceptionally good or bad day.

Tip 2

Make a target weight believable.  How will you feel?  What will you wear?  What will you be doing?

When I loose weight I will feel prettier, more confident, happier and most of all MORE ENERGENIC! I will wear whatever I feel like wearing because I'll look good in anything!  I'm looking forward to wearing a bikini and shorts! I don't think I've ever been comfortable in shorts but I want to be!  It gets to be a pain when I wear pants when I'm going anywhere in the summer.  I will go on dates and out with friends and believe I look good!  I will run for fun.  I will never feel too out of shape to do what I feel like doing again.

February 3

Well I slept crappy last night so I ended up sleeping in late today.  I wanted to go to the gym this morning but that didn't happen.  When I woke up, again, I ate two small bags of sun chips.  That's really something I need to work on.  I worked at the pizzeria again and didn't snack at all! I was extremely proud of myself.  For lunch I had a garden salad and and soup again.  For dinner, a tuna sandwich and an orange.

When I was driving to the nursing home today I realized that when I'm in a good mood I do well with eating which leads me to believe I do eat my emotions.  I know I'll never be happy all the time so that is something I need to work out.

I watched "I used to be fat" on mtv and I think maybe it did help me get my head straight.  This is something I really need.  I want to be healthy and that girls story was actually inspirational.  On a down note though I got my presurgery papers yesterday and I need to get a physical within the next two weeks.  That means there's no way I'll get down to 200 before then and I don't think they'll weigh me in the day of.  I'm gonna try to be good with food and exercising until then so I'll be a little bit better.

As for exercizing lately, I have not made it to the gym recently but have been doing the DVD.  I have very bad shin splints though which have been making it so I haven't been giving it 100%.  I did end up going to the gym tonight after work at it was actually wonderful.  I did my "interval" training that also, I'm hoping, will make me more of a runner.  I run for 3 mins then walk for 2 repeatedly.  My shins were hurting but it I could push through it.  I was super proud of myself.

PS I'm buying a juicer tonght! I think it will be fun to use and definitely will be healthier and taste yummy!

Tip 1.

Weight loss is about desire not will power.  How much do you want to loose weight? why?

I'm not so sure I agree with this.  I think weight loss is about breaking bad habits and replacing them with good healthy habits for a life style change.  That in itself is desire and willpower.  You have to have the desire to get healthy and the willpower to put down the donut and pick up the apple.  Desire without willpower and vice versa will not give you results and drag you down.  I want to loose weight for so many reasons.  Some are the right reasons, some are not.  One reason is because I physically feel uncomfortable.  My gut gets in the way and I feel like I'm in a fat suit I can't take off.  Another reason is to get physically fit.  I would love to run a 5k.  I have never been a runner but always wanted to be.  I also want to look better and have more confidence to find "the one."  I know people should love you for who you are but if i were a guy I wouldn't look at me, and by being more confident that positive energy will draw people towards me.  I'm also a believer in you have to love yourself before anyone else can and when I look in the mirror I don't even like what I see.

Feb 2, 2011

When I woke up this morning, not until 9:30 because I'm a bum, I ate 2 little bags of doritos.  I'm not even a big fan of doritos.  After I ate them I felt super guilty.  Mornings are definately an issue for me.  I don't even wait for my hunger to kick in, I think it's just a habit now.  I'm going to work hard to break it because I hate feeling guilty and it messes me up for the rest of the day.

I worked at the pizzeria from 11-3 today and actually did pretty good.  I did snack on garlic sticks but had a soup and salad for lunch.  It was delish.  It's 6:30 now and I'm still not hungry, I'm pretty proud of myself for that.  I also did not drink any soda at the pizzeria which is good for me!  Oh, and I had a small peice of cake.  Not good but the fact it was tiny is still a big step!

As for tonight, I'm not hungry - so I'm not gonna eat.  I am going to workout though because I did not this morning.  I took pictures this morning in a bikini (I will post them later) that I really want to wear this summer.  Right now by looking at those pictures it is not possible, they're pretty scary stuff.  I'm keeping a camera in my bag at all times though so I keep in mind not to eat bad or skip my exercise or I'll keep looking that way.  My surgery is in 33 days now.   I could not be more excited or nervous at the same time.

Today overall I think was successful, of course that still depends on what happens when I get done work but as of right now I'm thinking positive for the future.

Okay well as you can tell I'm awful with posting daily.  I've decided that I'm going to keep a compisition notebook with me at all times and I'll write in it daily, then post those on here when I have time.  I know I could just leave what I have to say/am felling/ate in the book but I feel like if I have it where people can read it I will feel less likely to stray from it.  Also, I found a website that has 20 tips to keep you on track.  I'm going to break down one tip a day because a lot of them ask questions and have suggestion type things. Well today I am going to start with Feb 2, Feb 3 and today.  I did not write in my book yesterday but I'll try and write some about yesterday.