first post!

Okay well I decided to start blogging my hopeful weight loss to keep me on track and give me more discipline knowing the I'll let the world, if anyone reads this, know my weight and my stuggles. 

I'm gonna start with a few questions I read on someone else's blog..

• How am I going to lose this weight?
• What am I willing to sacrifice/change in order to make it happen?
• Am I ready?
• Why is weight my struggle?
• And finally: WHY do I want to lose weight?

How am I going to loose this weight?  I'm going to loose the weight by getting back into an exercise routine and changing my eating habits.  Right now I am planning on starting the 30 day challange by Jillian Michaels, spinning (hopefully 3 days a week), and eating healthier.  I also have about 10 sessions left for my trainer that I have to find time to go see.  I feel that my eating habits as of now are either good or bad each day and never in the middle.

What am I willing to sacrifice/change in order to make it happen?  I'm definitely willing to change my eating habits and sacrifice sleep time for extra workout time.  I need to stop with the trips to wawa to get green tea thats loaded with sugar and just drink water instead.  It won't be easy but it needs to be done.

Am I ready?  I definitely am ready.  Right now I feel like I'm in a permenant fat suit that I can't take off.  I need this for my health and happiness.

Why is my weight a struggle?  This question is one that I don't really know the anwser to but it's definintely one that I need to figure out before any weight will shed.  I used to not be so heavy and then one summer the pounds just started packing on and I couldn't stop it.  I know that I have a midnight snacking problem.  Actually snacking in general.

Why do I want to loose weight?  Well I would like to ideally loose around 70 lbs.  I weight about 208 right now so that would leave me at about 138.  I don't remember anytime that I weighed that little.  My "normal" weight is at about 160 which is big for my 5'2 frame.  I want to feel good with the way I look in my clothes, and without clothes, and just pretty much like what I see when I look in the mirror.  I definitely need it for the confidence.  Right now I am not confident at all.

Here's a little bit of a background about me.  I'm 23 years old and will be 24 in September.  I was an allstar cheerleader all my life so I used to be extremely muscular and in great shape, but never skinny.  I was always a thick girl.  I'm about 5'2 and weigh 208 lbs.  I wear between a size 14-16 and would love to eventually be a size 8.  Later I will put my inches of my body on here when I feel like/have time to.  I'm getting a breast reduction March 9th.  I have had very large ones all of my life and have back issues and indents in my shoulders because of it.  I really need to loose 8 lbs and be down to 200 for that.  I wrote on my papers I weigh 200 and don't want my insurance to come back and reject the claim because I weigh more than that after they approved it.  I also work a lot.  Close to about 50 hours a week which cuts into working out/sleeping time.  With that being said it's my bed time.  Hopefully tomorrow I'll start on the right foot.