In a funk....

So as I told you I went over my friends last night and she's married and pregnant AND we watched her 18 month old nephew, who is the cutest little boy ever, and although it was fun and I love hanging out with her and am extremely happy for her, I was definitely very sad about it too because I feel like that's where I want to be in my life right now.  I want to be with my partner for life starting a life and family together but I can't even land a boyfriend.  At least not one that I'd be interested in.  I blame it all on my weight.  People that I'm interested in aren't interested in me and that's why.  Who wants to be with a fat girl?  I have friends that are thin and can breakup with someone and have a new boyfriend 10 mins later! I'm pretty much in an emotional rut right now because of my weight and need to get past it.  I never thought I'd be so far behind all my peers with things like getting a career, married, a house and a family but I feel like I am.  I've always kinda thought if you can't be happy alone you can't be happy with someone either but I just feel like it's my time to meet someone, settle down and live happily every after but I don't believe it's in the stars for me.  I need to workout after work.  Hopefully that will help me feel better.